She is comfy in there....no sign of emerging!

Well here we go....the start of my 40th week is here. So many feelings - anxious, nervous, excited, impatient......I think the "unknown" is the most annoying part but yet somewhat fun too - strange, I know :-)

I had to get a haircut yesterday, just too much to deal with. Hoping to make it to Friday for a mani/pedi and then Nana Pat will be here and we're all set come Saturday evening - AFTER the Notre Dame/Stanford game of course :-)



Macy Kate has been super active the last few days so who knows what she is thinking. Doug and I just can't wait to SEE her in person and take it all in. To think it's within a week or so is amazing! I go to the doctor tomorrow at 2 and hopefully will be dilated past 1, which I was last week. They will schedule an induction for the following week, just in case!

So.....Wish us luck.....We are on high alert and VERY ready!

2am....Awake and Emotional....

I wake up a lot lately at night, and am sometimes just wide awake from 2 to 4am. JOY! Last night I woke up and got to thinking about things and started crying randomly - I am SO emotional lately :-)

I was thinking about Macy Kate coming so soon and about how I went to have lunch with Allie at Kindergarten yesterday and how excited she was to see me. I felt so special! Then I thought about how one day that will be my daughter and then I thought about how when Allie happily waived bye to me and hugged me and said "I wish you could come to dinner at my house tonight!" that this was probably the last time I will see her before the baby comes. That in itself was sad for me - I don't see her often now that she has school and I miss her. Then I got to thinking that once Macy Kate comes, I know I will still love Allie to death (Maddy too) but I have never loved a child as much as I feel like I could love my own, other than Allie, and now that place in my heart will be taken up by Macy Kate because she will be my own daughter. Which is fine and I am thrilled about loving her and having a child but it's sort of sad to have that part of my life (with Allie) change that way. I got to thinking about how I hope she remembers our special bond later in life and not just remember Nonny was in her life and now I have babies of my own, etc. Does that make sense? I want her to remember those special years where I soaked up every piece of her and she and I had this great bond - BEFORE children of my own. I want her to know that I am dying to be a Mommy because of her - because she showed me this huge love that comes from taking care of a child. SHE is the reason I am so excited about having a daughter and I think of Allie every time I walk into Macy Kate's room (mainly because it is Allie's stuff! HA! But I also just think about when she was a baby). I know she will be grown one day and will know I had a part in her early years but I don't know if she will ever truly know how much I love her and how much of an impact she had on my life of wanting to be a Mommy.

I think I will write Allie a letter soon explaining how special she is to me and when she gets older she can read it and know what a special time in my life that was for me. I want her and Maddy to know they will always be a part of my life! Then I got to thinking about how time flies by so fast and how Allie has grown up so fast and I know I will feel that way about my children and miss them being babies, etc. - I know....WAY beyond what I need to be focusing on right now but I found myself lying there at 2am crying and missing Allie and missing this baby inside of me that I have yet to meet:-) I drifted off to sleep about 3:30 wondering....Am I normal?

19 Days left and we had to do a trial run!

Went to the hospital yesterday for what I guess was a trial run! HA! I had contractions all day - just very mild ones - but did not feel her move for many hours and that is what concerned them. So I went up there and they monitored her and of course she started moving once I got there :-) So we went on home and I had a dr. appt today - they did check me but nothing is going on "down there" :-) So, for now, my bun is still baking!

Mommy & Daddy Having Fun Before Your Arrival

Doug and I had fun taking these - I took them on a timer and it was pretty funny! We took them up in her room - he wanted a few with the pink football which I thought was a cute idea! I felt SO huge (and was so upset my wedding ring doesn't fit for these photos!) but he was so sweet and kept complimenting me the whole time - he is so excited and ready for this baby girl to arrive and turn his life upside down - me too! 3 weeks from today is the due date....

The writing on the wall....

Tammy and I painted these letters for Macy Kate's room - one last thing to hang! Once we get her Little Miss Muffet canvas all the walls will be complete!

Swing Low....Sweet Macy Kate....

I think she has dropped! I can finally sit up and breathe and I just feel her lower. This is neat and scary - this means she's getting "into position"! When Doug or I press on her now, she presses back - HA! I think she is syaing "Hey you two...I don't have much space in here that's mine, so back off!" :-)

HUSH while you can!

Alisha and I were in Publix this weekend (getting ice cream and apple pie but that is besides the point!) and some bagger dude asked me if I was having twins. I nicely said "Nope, just one", so then he said "Oh no, you are having two" and I again, nicely, said "No, I'm sure, just one". He proceeded to keep talking.....IDIOT! He said "No, I think two" and at this point I was about to cry and we grabbed our bags and started to walk off and I said "Bye" and he said, as we departed, "Well then that's ONE BIG BABY!" - I wanted to run back in and say "Do you see me....9 months pregnant and here to buy ice cream and pie....do you think I care what YOU think? NO!!" - I should have gone Preggo on him (get it....instead of postal....preggo!) :-) UGH....some people just don't know when to hush!!!

Big Ole' Belly

Well, I attempted to take a few belly shots of myself last week. Here they are - nothing major, just something to remember this time by. I feel SO huge these days! I will try and take a few of Doug and I over the next week. I so wish I could see in there and look at her.....soon enough!