Flowers from home

Doug & Macy Kate sent me flowers on my first day back at work - it totally made my day!! They were Christmas theme and very pretty and it was just so sweet! Here's a picture of them!

Who couldn't love this face?!?!!

Day 3 at work and it's slow here so I find myself missing Macy Kate even more. Just in time...Tammy comes to the rescue with pictures!

Isn't it funny how your child looks so different when someone else is taking a picture of them? Seems as though she has changed since I dropped her off this morning! I know she hasn't, but it seems that way.

She apparently is perfectly fine without me :-) Which is a good thing! She is a very happy baby and her skin is finally clearing up so I plan to take some cute naked shots of her this weekend.

When I look at her I still see Doug mainly but other say they see me so who knows. All I know is....I see love! :-)

Back to work........

Well, these last 10 weeks have FLOWN by! They have been both joyous and heart breaking all at once. It's strange how much you can change in 10 weeks - I feel like I head back to work a completely different person than when I left. I am now a Mommy and someone who has lost her Dad - both huge events in a short amount of time.
Yesterday was my first day back and I felt like a fish out of water - everything felt so foreign and like I was just visiting for the day! HA! Well, today is day two and it's becoming real that life at work, away from my baby, will be hard. I cried this morning when dropping her off at my sister's house - last night came and went so fast as far as our time with her. I sit and wait all day to see and hold her and then it goes so fast and it's the next day before we know it and we are dropping her off again and away from her once again. Ahhh....to have the weekends! :-)
I know it will get easier with time but for now it's very odd to be here. Everyone is great here though, but I still miss her.
These are from today - her Aunt Tammy took them and made my day by sending them to me at work!

SO smiley!!!!

Here's a few shots of her smiling lately - she will actually laugh....it's adorable! Here's a video of her smiling too!

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She's finally...Sleeping like a baby!

She had her first night in her own bed, in her own room last Saturday. She slept....like a baby! We were SO proud of her! We grabbed the video camera on the way up to get her to document this big day! Enjoy!

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Two....NOT for the price of one!

Well, my twin nephews are here and adorable! My poor sister...she discovered that you do not get two for the price of one! She has to pay two co-pays everytime they go to the doctor...who knew!! Two of this, two of that, etc - these boys are costly - good thing they are SO cute! I love you Luke & Levi!

I miss you Dad....

For those of you who have not heard, my Dad died suddenly on Nov. 12th and it's still hard to believe we will not see him again in this life. Macy Kate was lucky to meet him but she will never truly KNOW him and that breaks my heart.

It's been a month and I look around and see people going on with their lives and it feels so wrong - a piece of ours is missing and it will never be the same, how can we just move on. I know this is part of grieving but it just seems like life is moving in slow motion now.

Please continue to pray for our family as we heal from this huge event and we look to God to fill that void.